It's been ages since I've posted here...It's not like I do it on purpose, it's just that when I come to think of posting then the internet is down or going too slow and then I get distracted by university work and then once again it slips my mind and the whole twisted process begins again, but we finally got the internet fixed and I can finally say some things...
Life has been getting progressively busier, I now have another piano student :) Casey is such a sweetheart. She's in high school, but even though she's busy with school work, she works hard. She's not put off that I've had to taker to basics to learn to read. Which I'm really lucky with because I've had a previous student who really didn't like doing it and didn't work so his parents pulled him out of lessons. The best about Casey is that she loves everyone elses nightmare of scales... scales drives me insane and I dread every technical lesson...but when I gave Casey her first scale for her exam she immediately started practising it. I love seeing someone so eager.
I'm learning now that as a new teacher I know very little and luckily I'm majoring in Instrumental Teaching Methods for Piano which is helping me so much. I'm alreaady incorporating everything I'm learning in lectures and finding out about amazing teaching methods books that are out there. I AM NEVER USING JOHN THOMPSON'S EVER AGAIN!!! I really want to get the "Piano Adventure" series. It's an amazing method that my teacher recommends and you see so many results in it. Most other methods don't have the reinforcement and review like this series...but of course this requires that wonderful thing called money...which I have to really save up for.
I must admit that all of this tires me out. I usually get home from rehearsals at night and put the stuff in the bread machine for fresh bread, chat to my mom and then go to bed. All the varsity work and rehearsals and teaching keeps me really busy and Nelson accepts it, even supports me on the nights when I just have to sms him and tell him that he can't come over coz I'm busy with work. It was really good to get a reply once that said he understands and that my future is more important to him than seeing me. I really got lucky with him, I realised that he's all I ever wanted in a guy and he was right in front of me...even though we weren't talking much after an unfortunate incident on my part, but we're over that :) all the guys I've been with in the past were not what I wanted, they didn't even treat me the way I really deserve to be, Nelson does. I never feel guilty, I'm always protected and I'm always cared for. I just hope I'm everything he wants. Some people at his work can't even believe he's dating a musician. At first I was insulted, but then you have to think about it...He's in such a disciplined work environment, working at an IT company where you can't make mistakes or else there's huge drama, he's also a fighter and does MMA (Mixed Martial Arts) cage fighting. Everything he does is so disciplined and I'm a musician who is wierd, wild, fun loving and just plain strange, half the time rehearsals start 30 min late coz people never ever arrive on time. I could never work in an office, I hate that restricted feeling, I love having fun in my work and that's what teaching and performing does for me.
Lol can you believe all that contemplation about how lucky I am to have him as mine is coz of a Demi Lovato song...well two actually. "Catch Me" is like our little song...now Mom don't say anything about it, it's not like we intentionally sat down and decided this was going to be it. We were both one day just having such a bad day, I was sitting in my car waiting for rehearsal to start and listening to this song and I was talking to him on Mxit, he told me he was listening to the same song and thinking of me. This was like last year, now two weeks ago or so, we had a braai at our house and then Andy's girlfriend Janine said that her and Andy have a song, I said I didn't even think Nelson and I had one, he and I looked at each other and smiled and then realised that "Catch Me" was pretty much "ours".
The other song that has me thinking all this stuff about my ex's and Nelson is "Everything You're Not." I just realised that these lyrics were so true abour my past and my ex's and the reasons why I've left every single one of them...One was actually about Nelson. I was with a guy and I bumped into Nelson and realised that he wasn't what I wanted coz guess what...he wasn't Nelson...that's what you get with 8 years of history with a guy...and I thought my relationships could never get as complicated as my parents 2 year break...I've done the 2 year break and more with this guy, but we always come back together, which says a lot.
Jeez, I just realised I've been writing so much... well I guess it's good coz then my family over seas can get an idea of what's going on in my life lol. I can't wait for one thing though and I'm hoping so much that this happens coz then it means I finally go to...AMERICA!!!!!!!!!!! I'm being serious here my dear family there in America. There is a chance that I can go to America at the end of next year for a teacher's conference with my lecturer and class. It's for a week and then my very clever mother pointed out that while I'm there, I might as well visit everyone for another 3 weeks after it so that I can spend a month over there...now it's not set in stone...it's only being discussed so don't get too excited yet until I've had confirmation which would probably only happen next year so I'll keep you all posted on that but yeah, if I go I'm hoping to see everyone that side coz I miss you all so much...I know I say it often but I really do.
Oh and I found out something really amazing that I don't think anyone would ever expect, especially since I've known him for years and years as my minister at my church, but my minister, Brian and our family are related. Distantly by either mom's grandfather or great grandfather coz they're both Richard's and that's all we got, but yeah...it's quite funny now though, coz he's going up to everyone in the congregation that Andy and I are talking to and then tells them that we're related...
And then Andy and I are getting confirmed on Easter Sunday. It's taken a long time and I had asked Brian so many times for classes, but now it's so close. I really can't wait. I've been ready for thins for a long time and I'm so excited.
This weekend we're going to our favourite caravan park for a long weekend away...actually, Andy, Dad and Mom are already there tonight, Nelson and I are joining them tomorrow coz I've got University and Nelson has work and all that stuff. It's strange not having them in the house, but I'll be there tomorrow and relaxing between using Dad's lap top for university work...yes I'm taking that with me on holiday...how pathetic...lol...but that's my life...what can I say...
Well I've got to finally end this long essay of my life and go eat and head off to our Thursday night service of Faith Reflexion...so keen for this one coz we watched "The Book of Eli" last night and we're gonna discuss it tonight. It's gonna be a very interesting discussion about a very thought provoking movie.
I'll try write again as soon as possible :)
Much love,
Bugz
